I used to love feeling out of my depth, especially when I talked to someone and they spoke with such sophistication and knowledge and I tried to keep up but it was almost impossible for me to do. Now, I hate it. Its all I feel. In my school work and with my friends. It's terrifying. At school, everyone gives such intelligent answers, or are so organised and on top of their study and assessments. Everyone is chugging along smoothly, and I'm broken down somewhere. They're all so darn intelligent and they don't even have to work for it, where as I have to work so hard to be of average intelligence. My friends have such mature issues and ways of thinking and TALENT. They're all so talented, and it makes me sad that I don't have that drive and creativity that they do. They have that knack for writing or always correctly arguing their point or that eye for photography and art or can play a musical instrument or kick butt in a sport so few can do, and then there is me. Silly old me.
Why cant I keep my head above water, at least for a little while