Pursuit of Happiness

I'm not sure if it is just me, but has sex a lot more prominent in our lifestyle in the last few years? I mean, its used to sell products like deodorant "smell like this and chicks will be all over you." It's absolutely ridiculous but "sex sells," which I really don't understand. 
I was reading "Will Grayson, Will Grayson," and Will tells Tiny he loves him, as a friend and Tiny says "You coming out to me Grayson? Because I'd sooner go straight then be gay with you."
And Will turns to him and says “NO. No no no. I don't want to screw you. I just love you. When did who you want to screw become the whole game? Since when is the person you want to screw the only person you get to love? It's so stupid, Tiny! I mean, Jesus, who even gives a fuck about sex?! People act like it's the most important thing humans do, but come on. How can our sentient fucking lives revolve around something slugs can do. I mean, who you want to screw and whether you screw them? Those are important questions, I guess. But they're not that important. You know what's important? Who would you die for? Who do you wake up at five forty-five in the morning for even though you don't even know why he needs you? Whose drunken nose would you pick?!”
And I think that is the point I am trying to make. When did sex become so important? When did it become the thing we revolve our lives around? When did having sex with some girl or guy become the reason behind our wardrobe or hygiene choices?
 I think the answer lies between the easy access the internet has given people to sex and the belief that has come from consumeristic values that only really good looking or rich or people who have it all can only be the ones to participate in sexual activities.

Changes and Realisations in the last month:

•   I finished my TVET course, which I am extremely sad about.
• I start year 12 in six days, which I am scared to no end about.
• I realised I want to be a print news journalist.
•  I am at a stage in my life where I dont like anyone and dont feel the need to like anyone.
• I have never wanted more to mean something or matter.
•  I really miss reading, and am so glad I have had the chance to catch up on it

John Green is an American author who has a vlog with his brother, Hank. Im in love with everything he says, and all his ideas. He is brilliant. I dont think one of his books has not made me cry. He has written Looking for Alaska, An Abundance of Katherines, The Fault in Our Stars and Paper Towns, and each one of them does not fail to make me think long and hard. This quote describes this so perfectly.

photo credit to ~ItsOnlyDallis

The story of Renee never ceases to break my heart, never ceases to inspire me. To Write Love On Her Arms is a not for profit charity raising awareness on teen depression. In year 8, three other girls and I stood in front of our school's teaching faculty, about 80+ teachers. They didnt really care what we had to say, until one of the P.E teachers came up to me and said what a great job we did getting our message across. We tried to get them to realise we are not alone, that we are important. 
Renee's story, the beginning of TWLOHA is worth a read any day of the weak.
"Tell them to look up. Tell them to remember the stars."

There are few things I haven't mentioned on this site, like for starters, who the hell am i? I mean, am I some 40 year old male impersonating a 17 year old girl? No. Yes, I am aware thats what the 40 year old male would say. Am I a 17 year old girl impersonating a 40 year old man? You bet I am! 
Of course, I'm kidding.
I know I've left this a bit late, but hello! My name is Claudia. I am a teenage girl, I promise! I write when I get sad or angry or just cant find the right words to say, and if I cant find the right words to right, I make up scenarios in my head. If im not spending time in the make believe fantasy fun land I call my head, Im on the internet or at some kind of educational facility or work. 
I hope you enjoy the fact the only way I can express my thoughts is to strangers on the internet, well actually, Kurt is the only person that reads this I think so Hi Kurt!
Anyway, Im trying to work out how to put a comments section up. The way yola makes you do it is a pain so we'll see how that goes.

Oops...make that one thing I dont talk about with people. So, Religion. I believe there is a God, and that all religions are just a different side or view of that one Higher Power. That doesnt mean I agree with every detail of every religion. There are some occasions where I laugh, because what is being said to me just cant be right.
Anyway, this comes from a discussion with one of my friends. (Let's call her Mary?) Anyway, Mary has been trying to convince me to come to church with her for the past two or three years and I keep making up excuses. They've ranged from I dont know what I believe to I was christened orthodox (which I was) and my parents dont want me to go, but I can make the decision at 18 etc. Until, finally, last friday I brought my point up with her. She gave the usual generic "There is only one God response" but after a little antagonizing I got her to have a discussion with me. My point was "With my work friends and at work I'm different to when I'm with you guys here, or when I'm with my family, but I am still me. All three sides of them are me" 
Mary's response was epic. "Okay. So at school, I dress and act like a girl but at youth I dress and act as a boy. You know me as one, and they know me as another. You'll fight and argue but only one of you will be right." I didnt expect her to make such a valid argument.
Then some chick interrupted our debate by laying on our table (Thanks -.-).
Anyway, Mary, my response? They both know you. They know your secrets and dreams, you've just remodelled them a little. Both sides could probably agree that youre smart, that you're insane. They know you by a different name, but they know you want peace and happiness for the people.